How Could I have Fallen
I was his and he was mine
I really though everything was fine
I was his girl he was my boy
He said our love, no one could destroy
He gave me his heart and I gave mine in return
I thought the fire inside would forever burn
He gave me so much that I could not compete
So how could I still feel so incomplete?
His world was mine and mine was his
But why do I feel no passion each time we kiss
He promised me a love forever strong and true
So how could I even think of you
I was his queen and he my king
That is why I am wearing this ring
He loves me so much and I guess I love him too
But how could I still have fallen in love with you
Final Breath
It’s already been some time
Since I confessed my feelings for you
And yet the wounds that my love created
In our friendship still feels fresh and new
The love just seemed to have
Scared our friendship, deeply for good
Now I sense things will never be the same
No matter how hard I wish it would
The love poisoned our friendship
And I feel it would soon die
I prayed to God on bended knees
That it wouldn’t, still no reply
Now I guess nothing could stop
Our once- beautiful- friendship’s death
I just wish you’d find it in your heart
To forgive me before it takes its final breath
By the shore of the sea
One night you talked to me
By the shore of the quiet sea
You said you still love my friend
Though it’s not what you intend
But my friend no longer loves you
And I guess you know it too
I saw the tears come down your face
Falling effortlessly, leaving a trace
So I held you by the hand
Just to show you I understand
While from a distance the seagulls flock
As we both sat together on a rock
I tried to hold back my own tears
Feeling that my heart was shot by sharp spears
I saw the pain in your eyes
The same kind I hid through my disguise
A smiling face, an encouraging yet sympathizing word
As the evening mist made my vision quite blurred
I told you it will eventually be alright
Comforting you by the sea that night
While my heart cried a silence in pain
We both listened to the wave’s sad refrain
If you had not only loved my friend
And if only you loved me instead
Then you wouldn’t be crying by the shore of the sea
While the seagulls cried my pain for me.
Crying Under the Sky
I’ve just been crying under the sky
Hiding the tears beneath the rain in my eyes
With the rain that’s falling on me
My tears, they will no longer see
And as long as the rain will continue
I’ll join the weeping sky, by crying over you
Until then I’ll be able to pretend
That my heart has not been broken by you my friend
I’ll just cry with the sky so you won’t see
The tears hidden beneath the rain that I shed for thee
A Broken Heart Inside of Me
Inside of me is a broken heart that now I truly know
And one doesn’t have to look inside cause in my eyes it does show
It’s been such a long time since it’s been there just inside of me
I’ve known all along it was there but I pretended not to see
I was afraid to admit that it has broken all apart
When all along I knew, it was, from the very start
I didn’t want to believe that you have broken it in two
Cause I really thought I heard you say you loved me too
But when I remembered that I was only your friend
That’s when all my doubts came to an end
Now I’m convinced that inside of me is a broken heart
Which was long ago you have slowly torn apart
Was It?
Why do the eyes have to cry?
Just because someone said goodbye
Why does a heart have to be broken?
Just because a love so dear was stolen
Why does a dream have to be shattered?
Just because the promises, in the wind, were scattered
Why does a girl have to pretend?
Just because she fell in love with a friend
Why does she have to cry?
When no one ever said goodbye
Why does her heart have to be broken?
When there was not even a love stolen
Why does her dream have to be shattered?
When she was not given any promises scattered
Why does she have to write this poem and pretend?
Was it because she fell in love with a friend
More than a Friend
No don’t expect me to be your friend
‘Cause I love you and I can’t pretend
Don’t expect me not to get hurt or cry
Each time I see you with her, walking by
Don’t be surprised when you see the tears
Behind my smile, behind my cheers
Don’t be surprised when you see my heart
Shattered and battered, broken all apart
Don’t ask why you can’t be my friend
‘Cause you’re more than that to me do you comprehend?
Whenever I Call You Friend
It feels like I’m fooling myself
Whenever I call you friend
For deep with in my heart you’re more than that
And I just can’t pretend
There are times when I would ask myself
Why friends are all we could be
And instances when I make a wish
That you would also love me
Just a friend was I in your life
No matter how many times I cry
And even if my heart shatters in pieces
Still a friend, will I be to you ‘til I die
But now that I’ve let go of the love
It no longer hurts to call you friend
For now I’m being true to myself
Coz I’ve gotten over you, like you say I’d do, in the end.
The Day I fell in Love with You
How can I forget the day I fell in love with you
When it was then that my heart broke in two
Knowing that all I could ever be was your friend
I choose to hide the feeling and just pretend
I made sure to make that date on my calendar
And the same night I wished upon a falling star
But until now my wish hasn’t come true
Cause you still don’t love me while I love you
Tonight is the anniversary of the day my heart died
The very same day that I once unabashedly cried
I’ll never forget the day I fell in love with you
Cause it was the same day that my heart broke in two
I don’t Want to Have your Heart
Late last night I was contemplating with tears in my pillow. I was thinking if I should keep on pretending or just let my feelings show. Deep inside I know you know about this love I have for you. But I was thinking if you also have knowledge that you have broken my heart in two. But would you care even if you would find out how much I’m hurting inside? I know very well that you don’t love me but I really don’t care at all even if it hurts so much to know that. I’ve felt this kind of pain before with someone whom I loved very much just like I love you and I think this time I’m already used to it. I mean the pain of loving someone who can never love me back. How could I be so stupid and make the same mistake. Who ever said that “you learn from your mistakes”?
You are very much like the boy I loved before because you did all the same things that he did. Just like him you made me cry, just like him you have broken my heart and dreams. How could two different people be very much alike at the same time? I wish I could make you love me too but I guess wishes are never made to be granted coz mine never was. I have stopped believing in falling starts and wishing wells. I wish I could stop my heart from loving you but I can’t. I never meant to fall in love with you and I never meant to cry but I could just not conceal my grief inside so I let it out in forms of liquid falling form my eyes. I know you saw the tears but I just couldn’t admit that they were all because of you. I’ve come this far pretending that I don’t love you and I wouldn’t dare stop now. I don’t know if time would heal all the wounds that you have given me. I just know that the only cure is to have you love me too but that will never happen not in reality. Perhaps the best thing for me to do now is to let you go but I won’t. I will continue loving you and you don’t have to love me back because it’s enough for me to have you as a friend. I would no longer want to have your heart because I now it doesn’t love me.
Remember Me with a Smile
I bet you’re surprised to receive this missive from me. To tell you frankly I am too. I’m not even sure if I should be doing this. But I’ve thought it over and since I guess there is no harm in letting you know what I feel, I wrote on.
It’s nice to know that in spite of all that happened between us we still ended up being good friends. And now I have finally awakened, deep within the chambers of my heart I believe that I’ve already let go of the love, the love that had almost destroyed our friendship. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore, I still love you, but I’m no longer “in love” with you. I hope you see the difference between loving and being in love.
I’m proud to say that now I can sincerely call you friend without feeling a sharp jab at my heart. I really am grateful that you have become a very special part of my life although in the beginning there has been pain, which was not entirely your fault. Never have I regret loving you because the pain it brought me taught me so many things in life and somehow it helped me become a stronger person. I used to be so frail, the pain hardened me up. I just wish you happiness and I want you to remember that I’d rather lose your heart to someone else rather than to lose your friendship. Thank you so much for understanding me then, for always being there and for being a friend. All our memories both good and bad are well taken care of, kept inside my heart. I hope sometimes you would remember me and when you do remember me with a smile.
A Long Lost Friend
Lately something inside of me grew, I was caught unaware. It took me by surprise and the next thing I knew was that I’ve fallen for you. I’ve tried to brush the thought out off my mind because I know that if I attend to it I would only end up hurt in the end. I told myself that I may be wrong, that this may not be what I think it is, that I might have just mistaken or confused this special feeling that I have for you, with love. It hurts to admit but it’s true
I hated myself for feeling this way because I wanted so much to keep the friendship and now I know it would be hard with love getting in the way. How could I ever sincerely call you friend when in my heart I know that you’re more than that.
Please try to understand if I ever have sudden changes in the way I act whenever I’m near you, the awkward silence that never used to be there before or the far away look in my eyes as well as the times when I would act so strange each time you’re with someone whom I now you care for. Love and pain explains it.
Please try to bear with me. I’ll try to get rid of the feeling as soon as I can and as soon as my heart make sit possible. I assure you, you will get your old friend back, the one that didn’t use to feel this way for you. It’s just that right now what I feel for you is inevitable.
Soon I know I will be able to handle this crazy emotion, it has already started to harm my heart and I won’t let it destroy the beautiful friendship that we have. Before that even happens, I’ll have to keep distance and go away for a while, just as long as the feeling hasn’t gone away. But I’ll be back soon my friend. You’ll get your old friend back and when you do I hope you’ll welcome me, your long lost friend.
It may take a while but I’ll be back…. I hope.
The Girl in the Song
The Radio was playing a sad tune
About a girl who fell in love with a friend
Just like me the girl in the song
Chose to hide the feeling and pretend
Her friend is in love
My friend is too
Both of them with someone else
And our hearts broke in two
Each line in the song
Sang about my life
With sharp words cutting
Through my heart like a knife
The girl in the song cried just like me
Not knowing what to do
Coz we’re both in love with a friend
Who broke our hearts in two
He’s the Boy, I’m the Girl
He’s the boy, the one I love
Who broke my heart in two
I’m the girl a friend of his
Who cried the whole night through
He’s the boy standing by the door
Wearing a smile on his face
I’m the girl watching from a far
Wiping away my tear’s trace
He’s the boy I hold so dear
The one I gave my heart to
I’m the girl his best friend
Whose heart he broke in two
FALL FOR YOU
You were there when he left you saved me from despair
Stitched my heart back together when it was far beyond repair
You were my knight in shining armor when I was a damsel in distress
Soaking up all my emotions, all my heart could confess
You held me by the hand as my dreams fell in the drain
When my sky was pouring you walked with me under the rain
You painted a smile on my face, wiping away all the tears
Draped me inside your arms chasing away all my fears
You stayed with me 'til the dark sky turned to blue
So tell me friend, how could I not fall for you?
The Inevitable
I love the way your eyes sparkle whenever you smile
How rosy your cheeks can be that I could spot you from a mile
I love the way you make me giggle like a little girl
Or how funny you can be sticking your tongue out in a curl
I love the way you lift my chin so you can look in my eyes
And how well you can read through me behind my mask and disguise
I love the way you can make my heart flutter like no one else can do
Or the way you tell me how your day was with a line or two
I love the way you can be silly and then so serious all of a sudden
Or how you can crack me up with a joke when my days seems dark and sullen
I love the way you rest your chin on my head when you hold me near
And how one comforting line from you would make my worries disappear
I love the way you cup my face whenever I hold my head low
And for understanding my heart and this feeling that has started to grow
I love the way you try to make me feel special though I know I'm not at all
And for successfully catching me each and every single time I fall
I love the way you try to protect me from getting hurt again
But this is something inevitable 'cause I'm falling for you my friend.
I’ll Still Love Him
The keep on blaming the one who has the broken heart
And not the person who broke it apart
Can’t they see that I’m really not the one to blame?
Coz there’s nothing I can do if he doesn’t feel the same
He’s a real heart breaker that I can say
But I still love him anyway
And even for the fact that he’ll never love me
I’ll still love him my friend you’ll see
Secret Kisses
They sit in quiet conversation in their own private room
Sharing secret innocent kisses and embraces as the flowers began to bloom
Unspoken feeling and fleeting touches, she can never ever share
The feeling creeping in her heart, she needs to make him forever unaware
Slowly he stands up and walks to the door leaving her all alone and cold
She clutches for reason and then wonders, should her feelings ever be told
Deep in solace she sits there confused asking why their friendship's come to this
Seems like it has been somehow tainted by their innocent, sweet secret kiss.
Hopeless Romantic No More
I'm tired of falling stars and wishing wells
I no longer believe in love potions and magic spells
I'm done with fairy tale books with a happy ending
I've lost faith in keeping my fingers crossed and believing
I now refuse to listen to love songs and read poetry
I'm tired of Montague and Capulet and their love story
I'm tired of sunsets on the beach and a moonlit night
I've had it with love, it's forever out of sight
I'm tired of waiting for you to fall my friend
I've had it with this broken heart that can never seem to mend
I'm tired of hoping and I'm tired of wishing for you
Tell me, when will you learn to love me too?
Forever Friends
I will hold your hand in mine if you need me by your side
Cradle you in my arms ‘till all your fears have died
I will be your shelter and refuge when the sky begins to pour
And I will sing you to sleep “till there’s pain no more
I will kiss away your tears when they start falling down like rain
I will be your one piece of sanity in this world gone insane
I will be the rainbow in the sky when your dark is dark and grey
I will be your North and compass when you seem to lose your way
I will be your forever friend after our love story’s past
Love may never be forever but our friendship will forever last.
Tell Me Friend
I wanted to give you my heart
But it’s broken all apart
I don’t know how it came to be
Cause it happened so suddenly
I was about to hand it to you
When all of a sudden it broke in two
All I can remember was you telling me
That friends are all we could be
But when I looked down I saw my heart
It was already badly torn apart
Tell me friend who broke it in two
Tell me friend was it you?
You Don’t Have To Love Me
My friend I’m in love with you
But you don’t have to love me too
Don’t bother to sympathize and pretend
That you love me more than a friend
I’m used to getting my heart broken you see
It happens every time I remember you don’t love me
But don’t worry I can take it all my friend
And if I can’t, then I guess, I’ll just pretend.
A Friendships Death
I’m sorry to tell you but this can’t go on anymore
Things are not just like it used to be before
Our friendship was very special but now it has to end
Although I know you still want to be my friend
But try to understand that it just can’t last
The friendship we’ve shared together is just part of the past
Although I know you care I don’t consider you a friend
I’ve reached the final decision; sorry to say it’s the end
Don’t try to change my mind, it’s already made up
I’ve finally decided that this has got to stop
Goodbye my friend this is it, cause I can no longer pretend
I’ve fallen in love with you so you can no longer be my friend.
Betrayal of Friendship
Why do I feel second best whenever she's with you
I feel a stab of jealousy in my heart this much I know is true
When you're with her it feels like you don't even see me at all
Leaving me alone in a corner hoping no tears would fall
My presence doesn't feel much needed once she enters the room
You quickly turn your gaze at her and I fade to a color of gloom
I know it shouldn’t matter to me,’ cause after all I'm just a friend
And no matter what. that's all we could ever be in the end
I don't want to jump into conclusion that I have fallen for you
Frankly speaking I don't even know what my heart is getting in to
It scares me so to feel this way 'cause it may mean another heartache
But more than that I'm scared that our friendship will be at stake
I've lost so much already I can't bear losing another part of me
I can't betray our friendship and I know with her is where you'd rather be.
Kismet
How do you expect me not to love you
When it feels good to be in your arms
How do you expect me to forget this feeling
When I'm trapped under the spell of your charms
How do I get back to being just your friend
When I love the way you kiss my forehead
How do I let go and just walk away
When in truth I'd rather be with you instead
How do I stop falling for you
When you keep on being so great
How do I stop my heart from beating
When loving you seems to be my fate.
A Little Something More Has Grown
I'm sorry if it seems I'm holding on to you so tight
In spite of the fact that I know I do not have the right
I'm sorry for the petty quarrel we had yesterday
For making you feel so bad, much to my dismay
I guess what I'm trying to say is that you mean so much to me
So much so that sometimes I don't know which side I should be
I didn't mean to confuse friendship with love but sometimes I do
It gets so had sometimes that I don't know how to act around you
I'm sorry if there are instances when I act like a jealous girlfriend
That's simply how I'm feeling at that point and I can't pretend
I don't mean to complicate thing but I don't know who I am to you
Though sometimes I get the feeling that you're feeling this way too
I might sound crazy but then again I want this to be known
That more than just a friendship, a little something more has grown
I'm scared out of my wits all because I don't want to lose you friend
But this is who I am and I'm not good at make pretend
I'm sorry but it seems I’m crossed with my feelings right now
and I often wonder if you share the same feelings for me somehow.
Blurry
All of a sudden you don't seem to smile as much anymore
There's definitely something there that wasn't there before
The eyes that sparkled with mirth now seems so blurry
I can't put my finger on it, but it's making me worry
I wish it was easier for me to see behind your mask
So I'd know exactly how you are and I wouldn't have to ask
I wish I could chase away the cloud hovering above your sky
What I'd give to read your mind so I don't have to ask you why
I wish I could paint your sky with a million stars tonight
Hug and kiss away all your worries with all my might
And if by chance you read this poem I want you to know
That I'm willing to share your pain with you because I love you so.
A Hearts’ Letter
I know it's been some time since I was broken in two
And I know that until now, he still doesn't love you
I know how hard you try not to break down and cry
Afraid that he might see you and ask you "why"
I can feel your pain each time he talks about her
Coz when he does it tears me apart like a sheet of paper
I remember the night I broke and you cradled me gently
As the tears in you eyes fell down so slowly
Don't worry someday I know we will both mend
But you have to finally accept that all you can be is his friend.
A Poem for Someone
My colors fade to gray as soon as you start to leave
And I can't help but wonder why, this love we can't conceive
My sky turns to grey, after a bright shade of blue
My world crumbles to pieces, whenever I'm not with you
My mornings are not as bright, without a trace of your smile
And I would die for a second that I could hold you for a while
The winter comes so early and the season skips it's spring
Once we say our goodbyes the birds refuse to sing
My heart is filled with torment at the thought of losing you
My dreams begin to crumble knowing they may never come true
My colors fade to gray as soon as you fade from sight
I don’t care if it kills me; I still choose to love you with all my might
Glimpse of You
With sad eyes I looked through my window each night hoping
to catch a glimpse of you and when I do, some way I feel my
heart forming a little smile inside my chest. That is in spite of
all the pain inflicted by my love for you, the love that has so
long been dwelling inside my heart. I have had many attempts to shake it off but all of them proved to be futile. No matter what I did I still find myself in love with you, grinning that silly grin
each time you're near and shedding those bitter tears whenever
I remember the thing that I want most to forget, that all I am and
all I will ever be to you is a friend.
And now as you pass by while I'm peering through my window,
I try to wear a smile on my face to mask the pain inside for I know
all I could have is your friendship. I followed you with my gaze, now
hidden behind my curtains, until you disappeared in the horizon.
I proceeded to my bed, now I can rest myself to sleep for I already
caught a glimpse of you.
To A Boy, From A Girl
Have you ever felt the pain of loving someone though you know she doesn't feel the same
Have you ever tried to look inside her heart and just cross your fingers wishing that somehow
written there, is your name.
Have you ever tried gazing up to the sky wishing for a star to fall
When none of them made your wishes come true at all
Have you ever wanted to say "God, I love you so", but thought what good it would do
Have you ever wanted to ask "do you love me?" though you already know she doesn't love you
Have you ever had sleepless nights just wondering what she’s doing right now
Have you ever made believe she loved you too so the pain would ebb somehow?
Have you ever in one time felt this way for a moment or two?
Have you ever been this way my friend, the way I'm in love with you?